I have been absent from the internet in general for the past few months because of school (I have now officially graduated!) and one of the first things that see when I return, is this review of my book on Amazon! I couldn’t be happier!
Thank you starlight reviews for such a stellar review!
Happiness is a great feeling no doubt, I do not contest. Everybody wants to be happy and satisfied. But you see, life isn’t like that, it beats you down in a unique way for everyone. And hence sadness comes into play.
If it did not have any evolutionary advantage, it wouldn’t have stayed in place, so many years after the first animals feelings emerged. Sometimes it is a legit way to decrease any amount distress an individual might be facing and it might be able to help people move on from various situations.
And so when someone is sad or distressed from a relatively trivial things, they are genuinely distressed. They may not have lost someone or something dear to them but we must realize that stress is affected by the perception of an individual, it is relative from person to person. What may seem distressing to you may not seem so to another person and vice versa.
So, when they ask you to fake happiness for the sake of others because your reason for being sad does not seem as prominent to them, be selfish sometimes (not all the times) and ignore them. You deserve to have a healthy roller coaster ride of emotions even if people may not want you to.
Oh my god, I thought it was just a myth but it happened to me! The manuscript for my second book has been corrupted due to file type errors. The effort that I put in the whole of last year all gone….
or it would have, had I not gotten a random tip off a couple of weeks ago to back it up in my email. I still lost a couple of chapters and a few thousand words but that is better than losing all of it. I feel as if I have dodged a bullet.
I couldn’t have put this project in the ground thinking that I will write something else because this was the second book in my series, so I would have had to write it again no matter how bad it felt.
So all the authors out there, if you haven’t backed up your manuscript in a while then back it up right now.
No, I did not flunk school or anything, I am just intrigued by the concept of failure.
It is the fundamental truth that for every victor, there is a loser. So why then are we so surprised when we lose? It is goo to have a fear of failure as it pushes you to your limits in order to succeed but then why is it so hard to accept that you just weren’t good enough. That when you were slacking off, your contemporaries were working hard, when you were hesitant, your contemporaries seized their opportunity.
I do not see failure as the end of this world scenario, while I certainly will try better than my best to not fail but it is truly not the end of my career. I will pick myself up back once more, see where I lacked and run once more.
I think that one attitude is what makes all the difference between successful people and unsuccessful people. To be able to take on near impossible challenges, failing, learning from the failure, making it less difficult than before and taking it on again, is the only path to success.
Now there are even those individuals that do not try in the first place in order to avoid failure, to those I say that there is no bigger failure than not having tried and no regret worse than what could have been.
In conclusion, I would like to say an old quote from god knows where ‘Seven times down, eight times up’.
“If you could get the ability to see the future, would you?” Raj asked as he looked up to the starry night sky.
“No” Divya replied “while knowing about the future is great and all, I would rather enjoy the moment”
“What is there to enjoy in this moment?” Raj asked “you are stuck with me here in this boring camp that we haven’t even left the camp the whole day, I haven’t even gotten my job done”
“Well look at it this way, I am in your company under the light of such a brilliant sky” she said “We are having intellectual debates, what better can there be?”
“Well, I see your point” Raj said “but wouldn’t you want to see what the future holds, what kind of problems you overcome, what kind of things will you achieve?”
“As I said, I am enjoying this moment” she said.
“Wouldn’t you like to stand by my side as I receive a nobel prize or something?” he asked “Wouldn’t that be great?”
“It would be” she said “I would love to see your dreams realized but you know it does not go well for those who live too much in their dream and forget to live”
“I understand your point” Raj said “But you know with you gone, I have nothing to focus on but my dream”
There was silence on the other side. He looks towards her, she has her arms open inviting him to hug her.
He prances on to her but can get hold of nothing but air.
He bursts into tear as he looks down at the urn that had been there all along.
There is something stuck in my mind recently. I don’t know how it got there or what instigated it. Whatever it is, I guess this is the right attitude to have as a story teller.
Now, I recognize that my book isn’t literary gold, it just the best thing an amateur author could put together in his spare time from school. So I guess this sentiment comes from that.
It is ‘a promise to tell a better story’, that’s it.
Who is that promise to? I don’t know. Maybe myself, maybe to people I love, may to the world, I don’t know. I just promise to tell a better story.
Now it doesn’t help that this thought came to me during exams but what can you do? Thoughts come at their own pace.
I guess this is the attitude I will carry or the rest of my life. Every time I make a movie or write a book, I will make a promise to tell a better story next time. No matter how good I get, I will then push myself to tell an even better story.
Every hero in the traditional sense has a fatal flaw. one innate quality that they cannot ignore and may be the reason behind their downfall. This quality is essential in order to create interesting characters for your story. As it provides a chink in the armor for our character that can’t be covered no matter what happens to pass.
However, this is not something that only exists in the pane of fiction, real humans have it too. Now there may be no psychological proof behind it but knowing that real humans have so many faults in their characters, it isn’t far fetched to think that there is a fundamental flaw that cannot be overcome.
As my exams inch closer day by day, I have enough empty space in my head (cause we all know nobody uses their brains during their school exams) to think deeply about my own character. I have understood that my fatal flaw is of loyalty.
I become too loyal too fast, I trust too easily and I am willing to go to war for those whom I trust. I can’t even count how many times I have put down my own work in order to help a friend. How many times I have left occasions that might help me climb the social ladder because I saw a friend lonely.
It even leaks into other facets of my life, If I like the music of one band or singer, I will stay loyal to them forever. If I like a story, I will research all the details that I can about it to the point of obsession. I guess the reason why I am an author is because I am this fiercely loyal to everything.
So, now I pass on the question to you, What is in your mind, your fatal flaw?